Kaitlyn and Lara's Biggest Loser

It's been awhile since I've blogged on here, but don't be fooled, I'm still in this hardcore. I am still working out daily, and trying to push my workouts to twice a day. I saw a friend last night that I hadn't seen in about a month and she was amazed at how much weight I'd lost. It made me feel great. My self confidence is back for sure. I think when I originally weighed myself my scale was a bit off tho, cuz I am pretty sure I weighed more than what I listed as my original weight. So i will be adjusting my weight ticker. Which ironically will show that I've lost more weight, but I am still about twenty pounds away from my original goal. Still encouraging tho I think. The only reason I found out about it was a doctors appointment that I had this week. So I'm grateful but at the same time annoyed. haha oh well at least I still like what I see in the mirror. And I'm proud of myself for losing 15 pounds since the start of this. That's more like it. I'm going to keep it coming off too. I feel like my discipline in this is carrying over to other parts of my life and i want to continue this healthier lifestyle in all areas.

Lara

That is my goal:  re-invigorate myself with my workouts and food.  I've been a bit lax this past week and it's a bummer because I am so close to 140.  But I re-did my weight ticker because I want to readjust my goal.  I'm heading for 130 lbs instead of 140 so I still have 12 lbs to go. 
This morning I went to my gym and did a hard core work out to get back in the groove.  I did elliptical, stair stepper and running on treadmill for a combined cardio of one hour.  Plus I did some toning with the weight machines.  I was pretty excited about it.  I had done workouts this week, but none of them had seemed very intense, so it was nice to step it back up.  And tomorrow I am going to go play ultimate frisbee for a few hours as long as the weather is nice, so that will be good cardio too.  Now to food.  Time to get ultra serious because I've been letting myself have a few too many treats a little more often than I had been before.  So getting those back to a once in a while special treat is a focus too.  This past week was really hectic and sad and stressful, but I can't let that be an excuse for not pushing myself.  This next week WILL be better.  And hopefully soon, I will be at 130 and will have lost some more inches on my bottom half. 

-Kaitlyn

i always have this fear that when i step on a scale or take a picture that i'll be disappointed because i thought i was skinnier than i really am. tonight, that happened. i wanted to update some of my pictures on here so i could see my progress. only problem is that once i took the pictures in the same outfit i had taken my originals in, i didn't see any real difference. it looked exactly the very same to me. i have been busting my ass for four months now, and to see that it didn't really look all that different on my body, caused some serious mental drama. what should i be doing differently? i know for a fact i could be more strict on food choices. i eat healthy usually tho, and am always within or below my calorie limit. so what else can i do? i feel like all my confidence and excitement have, at least for the moment, gone out the window. i even took a few pictures of myself naked just to get a realistic view of myself, and deleted the pictures pronto. am i being too hard on myself? or am i really a disappointment right now? i'm proud of myself for working so hard up to this point. and pushing myself past limits of comfort, but this is one of those road blocks that will knock ya flat on your back. i feel like i just want to sit down and cry. i feel like i'm face to face with exactly what i was afraid of, that busting my butt got me nowhere, and nothing has changed. that the person in the mirror has great potential, but just isn't reaching it. it's that same feeling i've always struggled with in all areas of my life. it's almost a feeling that i'm destined to be mediocre, forever that cute girl but never beautiful, that girl with the pretty face but let's ignore the rest of her. that's not what i want to be! i want to be so much more than the girl with a pretty face and nice personality. i want people to stop in their tracks when they see me because i'm something worth remembering. not just on the outside, but in every aspect. i'm tired of looking in a mirror and feeling invisible, and feeling like everyone else thinks that about me too....

Lara

So technically, tomorrow is the end of the biggest loser this season, but I really know it's not an "end" it's really just a new beginning of something that needs to stay in my life.  I am so close to my personal starting goal that it would be really great to step on the scale tomorrow and see 140.  I don't see that quite happening, but I do see maybe a 141 or 142 hopefully, which is pretty darn close.  Plus, as Lara said with her, I have lost quite a few inches and my clothes fit better- in fact, it's almost time for shopping spree- most of my pants are too baggy.  I would like to continue doing the email and website probably through the month of May to get down to 130-135 and then after that continue on the healthy path so I can maintain a good healthy weight.  It's great to see hard work paying off for people on here.  Way to go!  I really hope a girl wins biggest loser tomorrow night!  It's about time!

maybe a breakthrough has finally occurred. i've been feeling better about myself more and more lately which is a great feeling. kaitlyn and i are really consistent with our daily emails on food and workouts which is so helpful. and today i had an exciting happening. it was very warm today and i decided to try on my swim suit and see about getting a bit of color on my pasty white skin. i looked in the mirror and actually liked what i saw! imagine that! no walking awkwardly to hide cellulite and "wobbly bits" as bridget jones so accurately calls them. it was a great feeling. all things sucked in, tight, and toned. and then after tanning a bit, i went inside and put on a t shirt and a pair of shorts that last year were too snug, and this year hang off my hips. i'm not minding that one bit! soon enough i'll get my updated pictures up on here so i can show off the inches lost. even if the numbers aren't going down as fast as i'd like, i am down to a size seven now! i can actually wash and dry my jeans and pants and shirts instead of air drying them to insure comfortable fitting. haha i'm getting excited about this even more now and am so glad that my body craves healthy activity now.